im depressed today... i take a look around at people, everyone has someone- friends, lovers.. husbands, wives. i take a look at myself and have nobody... and it hurts so much that i just dont want to deal with life anymore.

im tired of crying myself to sleep and wondering whats wrong with me .. why do i have to be strong 24/7.

i just dont think im meant for this world.. love doesn't seem to exist... neither should i.

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一切有为法 如梦幻泡影

如露亦如电 应作如是观

Yi Qe Yau Wei Fa, Ru Mon Wan Bao Ying

Ru Lu Yer Ru Dien, Ying Juo Ru Zi Guang

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above is an excerpt from the Chinese script of Jin Gang Jing, the
Diamond Sutra, that was passed down by the Buddha as a puzzle and a
hint fo... Read More

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Before I go into detail about the actual question imagine this situation before, this is simple a hypothetical situation so please do not look too much into it.  

  Your casually walking down the street and you accidently bump into another person and he falls to the ground.  You attempt to apologize but his pride gets the best of him and he calls you out to fight.  You do not want to fight but he really leaves you no choice (just g... Read More

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TODAY, I SAW 6 PATIENTS, TOOK CARE OF MY DOGS, KISSED MY BELOVED LONG AND HARD, WROTE 3 REPORTS, TYPED UP 12 MORE PAGES FOR A BOOK ON CI, DID ALL EMPTY HANDED KATA AND ALL KOBUDO KATA FOR ISSHINRYU KARATE DO, ATE TWO HEALTHY MEALS (NO EAT THIRD), SLEPT FOR 1 AND 1/2 HOURS ON COUCH IN THE AFTERNOON, TALKED WITH MARIO ABOUT KNIFE FIGHTING AND DEFENSIVE TECHNIQUES AND HAVE READ ALL NEW BLOGS AND COMMENTED ON ALL NEW PICS IN THE GALLERY ON SITE.

THIS IS A VERY SATISFYING DAY.

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